Blerg

I am so tired this morning! I'm not subbing until 9:45 so I thought maybe I would get a little bit of shut eye but I dunno if that will happen!

Short update! I will write more later I promise!

Trying something new

For those who don't know, I'm trying this new diet (I like to call it lifestyle change) by cutting out all dairy and carbs (thats only for the first month). The nutritionist thinks it will help my headaches and stomach problems (IBS). As much as I am so for it, I am SO frustrated with things I want! At times I feel good like "I'm not having the cravings for certain foods!" Then I'm stupid and go watch "Cupcake Wars" on the Food Channel and am suddenly craving a chocolate cupcake with chocolate frosting! I am looking forward to getting a little lenancy on this after the first couple of weeks! I don't think I can last an entire month, so I may just do the full out for 2 1/2 weeks...I have no idea how I'm going to do it!

In other news, God is good! I got $100 back from an appointment I had and no I can pay 1 of my credit card bills! Hopefully my mom gets the money she needs this month, because if not I can't pay the other CC! I need a job ssoooo bad!!!!

That's all for now. Wishing I was going back to school :(

A hammer to the head makes a bad headache...

So probably most people know that I've been suffering from chronic headaches the last several months. Every couple of weeks I've been getting shots in my tuches (I watch the Nanny too much) and they do help some, but the headache just comes back the next day. First, my doctor had me get an MRI done, and everything was fine, nothing wrong with this persons brain, everything was normal (HA!). So now I'm taking a medicine that prevents headaches (Ami-something). I started my full dose yesterday (started 1 pill for 3 days, 2 pills for 3 days, and now 3 pills), and I'm HOPING this helps! She also wants me to start taking Butterbur and Rhyno-something or another (I'm REALLY bad with names!). I went in and got a shot yesterday (Toteraol for the headache and Phinagen for the nausea), and on top of that, my doctor wants me to take a vicodin. Took away the cymbils and bongo drums in my head, but didn't take away the full headache. And it basically came back today as soon as my head caught up with the rest of me this morning (I'm sure everyone knows the feeling). I'm praying that these headaches will go away soon. It has been so difficult to function with these headaches! Daily I get on Craigslist and search for jobs to send my resume in. I had an interview at CSL Plasma for a position in receptionist, and I'm suppose to hear back by Monday whether I got it or not. I really thought the job sounded neat, so I'm hoping! I'm really just wanting to find a job! I feel totally worthless in my own home because I can't do anything but put myself in more debt!

Also, I'm hoping to attend a Deaf bible study on Thursdays. This will get me out of my anti-social shell and help me become accustom to being around people again.

In other news, my little brother broke a couple of fingers and his elbow last Saturday when he was trying to avoid being hit by a car. So he's going to be a gimp for 6 weeks, wonderful! Just in time for us to start a new project! We're (well my mom and my brother, I just supervise ;)) putting in new steps since our old ones were about to give out! Also, we're hoping to find a refrigerator soon to replace ours. We are currently using 2 college dorm sized refrigerators to supplement the big one...its not easy! AND my mom is getting baptized tomorrow! So excited!

Well that's all! I'll blog when I remember!


<3 Stacey

Feeling blessed

I'm honestly feeling very blessed right now…I spent my entire night reading a blog written by a mom whose 8 year old daughter is about to die of a rare form of pediatric cancer. I feel humbled with realization that this little girl has gone through way more stuff than I have in the last 3 years. I feel stupid about every little ache or pain I complained about, realizing this little girl has been fighting for her life. I’m physically and emotionally tired right now from reading it. I had to take an Ativan to calm myself down, not to have a complete breakdown. I know that I get to make choices in my life that this little girl will never see, and I complain about having this ability. Not anymore though! If I was ever more committed to making the right decision—correction, letting God make the right decisions—in my life, it is now! I will pray harder, I will read my bible and even fast if I need to!

Next step after that—taking to a counselor about the decision I’m going to be making. First thing I need to decide: am I going to go back to school in August? How do I go about getting accommodations for my ORELA? Who do I contact? Do I contact the director of Concordia before or after I do all of this?

My prayer today:

Lord PLEASE help me make the decisions you have put in my life—help me know what you have planned for me and help me STICK to your plan! Lord I also ask for guidance to find a job in this tough economy. I also pray for this wonderful nation I live in, that morality will find its way back into the political world, and the rest of the world as well. Thank You for providing me with so many blessings in my life!

I’m about to fall over and pass out so I better go to bed! I’m going to try really hard to update this at least twice a week!

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